Friday, May 20, 2011

There comes a time in life when you have to re-evaluate things.
What you want to do with your life, what's important to you.
What you like to do, who would want to spend time with. 
What kind of person you want to be.
What inspires you.
Who you are.

I think I'm doing this right now. 

My entire life lately seems like a blur, and I'm not sure how I feel about it.
It's easy, nothing ever changes really.
Nothing is bad.
But nothing is exciting either.
Nothing is overloaded with fun anymore.
I'm not waking up excited about the day ahead of me.
And I feel like I'm letting my wall down. 

Summer is about beginning again.
Starting over where you left off the summer before.
With late nights, a list of things to accomplish, and a hope for something better.

Grace told me today, "summer is what you make it, we learned that at fifteen."

I need to make this summer worth remembering.
And I know it's only two weeks in, but I already feel like a different person than I was when I ended school.
Again, not sure how I feel about it.

I'm kind of lost.
I've never been lost before.
I've always known where I was going, what was coming next.
But right now... Nothing.



Cari said...

well, one thing I can tell you is that you sre not alone :) we can be lost puppies together :) glad you are home!

Kristina said...

thanks! i can't wait to see you guys!

Jake and Kim said...

college years are like that for everyone dearest sister! you'll find it!!

ps the word verification for this comment is "blemet" haha funny word.